Friday, November 1, 2024

On the Way to Madison Square Garden

 








Before and after a delightful afternoon of conversations with the Trumpers. 


On the Way to Madison Square Garden

All week, we talked about the best approach. Do you go inside or stay outside, to easily escape the hate and bile at a Trump rally? We decided to try to go inside Madison Square Garden, where Trump was supposed to take part in a rally. Be an anthropologist, with a little heckling. Take in the dark antipathy enveloping the country. Ask questions. Has it always been there or is this worse?  I would wear a brown shirt. That was the plan.  

All week,, my mind trailed back to the Feb 20 1939, when according to the Times,  "22,000 NAZIS H[e]LD [a] RALLY IN GARDEN;...Protected by more than 1,700 policemen, who made  Madison Square Garden a fortress almost impregnable to anti-Nazis, [on] George Washington's Birthday...».

 We've been here before, I thought.  Dad used to tell us about seeing cross burnings growing up in the Jim Crow South. We’ve never been close to becoming communist, Dad lamented. But we’ve always been on the verge of becoming fascist. We walked up from Washington Square Park to 32nd and 6th Ave where the Veterans against  Trump were holding a rally as people poured into Madison Square Garden. In the bathroom line a man holding a Trump sign said, "I'm not that into it," to us, assuming we were  fellow travelers. "Can't miss a good fascist rally," replied Ray. Our friend’s face turned red.  And he scurried off. Vendors were selling MAGA and "elect a convicted felon" hats. The Vets Against Trump were holding a presser. More and more people  were holding court for cameras, whether they supported or opposed this, carrying their signs and puppets. This is a cult of personality, said Will, my brother. We started to enter the line on 32nd street. Trump flags everywhere, it was like leaving NYC and joining an alternate reality. One man wearing leopard skin pants started singing in a Trump accent. We couldn’t tell what side he was on until he started singing about Jeffrey Epstein. Another man with a Japanese flag started screaming USA!!! USA!!!USA!!! Eventually, the police told us the event was at capacity. We walked  out. 

"You didn't blend in. I saw you two in the drag march," said my friend Sarah.

My friend Laurie passed us a Trump is a Fascist sign. Why is he a fascist, several asked. Make America Great Again is a reference to the Nazi Make Germany Great Again phrase, I replied. It's a great slogan right, one replied. Even Reagan was against walls. ‘Mr. Gorbachev, open this gate! Mr. Gorbachev, tear down this wall!’ said Ronald Reagan, at the Brandenburg Gate, June 12, 1987. Now your candidate wants to put up walls and tariffs.

We had a dozen or so conversations with the know-nothings about the wall and tariffs. They denied anyone died on January 6th or that Trump had anything to do with the end of Roe vs Wade. But one insisted women needed to shut their legs.  Their education source seems to be Fox news and tiktok, with lots of conviction, and not much information.  On we walked with our  Trump is a Fascist signs, receiving waves of support and ridicule. And walked to 8th Ave, happy to see Jay and the Rise and Resist crew. Lots of cops, who stepped in front of the row of activists standing on the post office steps. We still have the first amendment, says Jamie to the cops. It's chilling to think the Trumpers have this much support. My mind turned back to the old Mark Twain adage, “All you need in this life is ignorance and confidence; then success is sure."

The NY Times would later report that, "Mr. Trump’s rally featured a series of speakers whose remarks were far outside of longstanding political boundaries. One, Sid Rosenberg, a conservative radio host, referred to Hillary Clinton with profanity and a sexist epithet. And Grant Cardone, a businessman who spoke early in the program, referred to Ms. Harris as if she were a prostitute. Later in the program, Tucker Carlson, the former Fox News host, mocked Ms. Harris’s racial identity and intelligence as he jeered the idea that she could win in November." 

And we hoped the backlash from the rallies could somehow tilt things. Biden blunderred and on the last week of the campaign stumbled toward a nail biting conclusion. 

It's been nine years of Trump outrage. Rarely has a day gone by that we have not worried about something from him. 

The idea of a real estate developer running the country is amazingly depressing. 

The day after the rally a few of us met at City Hall to talk about saving the Community Gardens, under threat from developers in New York. I still say #SaveElizabethGarden public space for the people.

Save the gardens, says Christopher Marte. This is a climate crisis. Don't pit gardens against housing.

No more 43! We need strong and green!

Save the gardens. Save the city!!

#SaveElizabethGarden!!!

Fave protest sign ever. RIP Brad. I know you are always with us.

October rolls into November and the last days of the campaign. 

We planned on canvassing and texting voters in the swing states. 

I’ve spent the last three decades plus, hoping things tilt left.  But it's been split even between Clintons and Bushes, Obamas, Trumps and Bidens. 

Hope runs eternal that the women will turn the tide. And vote in huge numbers. 

Still, the racism and sexism feels daunting. 

Thinking about this, Rebecca Solnit wrote “Why-are-so-many-women-hiding-teir-voting-plans-from-their-husbands?” “And since I wrote it, Fox personality Jesse Watter said on air, "If I found out my wife secretly voted for harris, that's the same thing as having an affair... that violates the sanctity of our marriage... that would be D Day. Anyway I wrote: “Lots of memes and tweets and posts and videos are popping up, assuring women that they can keep their votes secret from their husbands and boyfriends. The unspoken assumption is that lots of women are bullied, intimidated or controlled by their partners, specifically in straight couples when she wants to vote for Harris and he supports Trump. The messages assure these intimidated voters that they can vote in peace and privacy at a polling place. But a lot of Americans now vote by mail, which generally means they fill out their ballots at home, where that privacy may not be available. On the one hand, I’m glad there’s outreach to those voters. On the other, the way these messages are framed seem to regard the grim reality that a lot of women live in fear of their spouses as a given hardly worth stating outright, let alone decrying. I get that right now we’re fighting for the future of democracy in America, the public version in which rights and norms and the rule of law are preserved – as the Washington Post humor columnist Alexandra Petri put it: “I am endorsing Kamala Harris for president, because I like elections and want to keep having them.”

But a lot of households are not democracies; they’re dictatorships. This may impact public life…”

So here we are, democracy dangling, like the hanging chads in Florida in 2000, depending on a few votes in Pennsylvania, Michigan and a handful of swing states, the electoral college is still distorting our politics. 

It shouldn’t be this close. 

But it is. 

As David Gerrold says, 

“It is no longer about his character.

It is about ours.”


































 

 





Friday, October 25, 2024

Taking a Bust for CUNY, as fear and trembling loomed, October blues. #APeoplesCUNY.

 

Taking a bust for CUNY, for a contract with real raises now. Education is a right. Fight fight fight. Our working conditions are our students' learning conditions. We need an educated, engaged, critically engaged workforce. Contract for #APeoplesCUNY @psc_cuny pic by @ministererik

Caroline and the new cat. 
How we are feeling about the election, by  @rozchast 
 
Taking a bust for CUNY. Contract for #APeoplesCUNY @psc_cuny pic by @ministererik

 Taking a Bust for CUNY, as fear and trembling loomed,October blues.  #APeoplesCUNY.

Real Raises! Job Security! Contract Now!” we chanted as the police approached with their plastic cuffs to arrest us Monday, taking a bust for CUNY, for a contract with real raises now at the CUNY Board of Trustees meeting. “Education is a right. Fight fight fight!!!” we chanted.  Our  working conditions are our students' learning conditions. We need an educated, engaged, critically engaged workforce.  Our demand: REAL RAISES, JOB SECURITY and a CONTRACT NOW!

It had been almost two years without a contract. I got a message from my union: "It's Claudia w/ the PSC. We're escalating our contract fight by protesting the Mon, Oct 21st Board of Trustees hearing at John Jay College. No business as usual for CUNY until we get fair raises!... 4PM for the hearing, 5PM for protest…” when I arrived, my friend Nora was speaking about the mold in the collections at the City Tech library overtaking shelves and offices. In the meantime, management has ignored and dismissed her pleas. It becomes a bit like the Magritte, “This is Not a Pipe.” This is not mold, they tell us. Looks like it to us. Our chapter chair, Carole, testified about the mold consuming the collection at the library. I didn't get a phd to become an expert on mold, she testified. But here I am. After a few more testimonies James, our PSC President, stepped up to testify, disrupting the hearing. Sit down and wait your turn, they told him. The auditorium filled with screams. We eventually made our way outside, where we blockaded the  John Jay College entrance. Thirty of us were eventually arrested,  elder members, the former president and vice president, younger adjuncts, nearly thirty of us.  With cuffs holding our arms behind our backs, the police loaded us onto an old school truck, turned police arrest van, and took us down to Pitt Street. On the way, we chatted about 2666 and past contract campaigns, strategies and tactics, precarious work and academic labor, and why we were doing what we were doing. Doing so, we took part in a long tradition. 

“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation,” wrote Henry David Thoreau, in Civil Disobedience and Other Essays.  “What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate country, and have to console yourself with the bravery of minks and muskrats. A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things..”

There is a joy in breaking the rules. We felt it at the action on Monday, screaming with a marching band, your friends around, cheering, taking the bus into the tombs. Henry David Thoreau understood this:

“If the injustice is part of the necessary friction of the machine of government, let it go, let it go: perchance it will wear smooth--certainly the machine will wear out… but if it is of such a nature that it requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then I say, break the law. Let your life be a counter-friction to stop the machine. What I have to do is to see, at any rate, that I do not lend myself to the wrong which I condemn.”

But we have to be smart about this, thinking about the law, the ways we move our campaign forward. 

In between conversations, the topic of the election came up again and again. I had been optimistic until I get to Allentown the weekend before, and witnessed the old polarization,the class and gender divides splitting up communities, the weekend before.

“You see its so nice here, but politics has kept people separated. It has broken up some friendships," said one observer, as reported in an essay in the New York Times

Trump says it: He will use the military and the Department of Justice against “The enemy from within”. That’s anyone who disagrees with him. It’s me. And you.

The old fear I had was back. I had it before Biden dropped out, feeling relieved when I heard while dancing at Berghain in Berlin three months prior. But for now, the Hillary fear, the fear about the reality of a dark world, a dark future. I think it was Werner Herzog who suggested, Americans are growing to learn what the Jews learned in the 1930’s, that half of the country wanted them to parish. The other half was more than willing to stand by and watch it happen.

The mood arises, then it fades for a day or two, then it comes back. 

It's been a lot lately. A few highlights from the last couple of weeks of Marching bands, a funeral, a surprise phone call, climate activists getting arrested, a conversation about Mysticism, a trip to Pennsylvania and then to see Hannah Gadsby. A joyous month of living and writing and teaching and seeing bands, before  the fear and trembling started to lurk back. 


Honk

There is a magic in the air as the marching bands invade Brooklyn with the Honk Festival. It's the happiest week of the year in New York.  It began Thursday 10/10 at 10 PM at Barbes, Brooklyn, dancing to the small music in the back of Barbes, “a hub for the art community” on 9th street and 7th Avenue in Brooklyn. Walking inside the sweaty, crowded, red lit dance room, friends were there, singing along in Portuguese to BABADAN BANDA DE RUA, a street band from the Brazilian city of Belo Horizonte, Minais Gerais. We danced to midnite and made our way home. 

The next morning, I woke early, rushed out, biking to the Governor’s office for a demo.

Say the activists:

“Fossil fuel companies are making hurricanes worse and they aren't paying for the damage. Climate Defenders & Summer of Heat to demand Gov Hochul take decisive climate actions. M Friday 10/11 8:30 am at Hochul's office (633 3rd Ave).”

People lined up on front of the office, with banners shortly after I arrived, chanting and blocking the doors:


“1234 climate chaos at our door. New Yorkers lives are at stake.”

 “Hey Kathy get off it. The planet over profit!!!! Hey Hochul,  climate change is calling.”

At 850 AM I rode back to Brooklyn to make the 930 AM yoga class, the day popping in front of us. By that evening the kid from Boston popped by on the way to a show.

Saturday

I met Mom at the Met for the majestic .... "Siena: The Rise of Painting, 1300–1350.” The show “examines an exceptional moment at the dawn of the Italian Renaissance and the pivotal role of Sienese artists—including Duccio, Pietro and Ambrogio Lorenzetti, and Simone Martini—in defining Western painting." 

Walking through the show, we talked about our old friends, the myth of St Catherine of Siena, looked at the Mexico Revolutionary prints, the folios in the Islamic wing, the rugs and glass, toasted to a lifetime of trips to Italy, the Met and back. 

Mom caught a ride home and I rode to Elizabeth Street Garden in danger of being developed.

There, Ron, Ray and I read poems, and had a few pints at Botanica, our old Lower East Side Collective hang out on Houston Street. 

 And broke the fast with Al and Bear. 

Robby and Juniper stopped by. And we danced with Monica and Josh and Ella and the majestic Funkrust Brass Band ending the Honk Festival on a jam packed bright October day.

Energy is always flying everywhere at this time of year here.

Sunday

No one could come to book group. 

Friends come and then they disappear. 

And others reappear. 

 Everyone is going through a lot.

A few of us met at Strawberry Fields, a few steps from the Dakota, on West 72nd Street  where John Lennon took his last breaths, to say goodbye to a friend. The pandemic had many casualties, including those left to make due during the pandemic, unable to get the preventive healthcare, services or support they needed. 

Still, Aunt Gladys smiled and made friends with strangers, and befriended bike activists, and made common cause with teengers, including our own, reminding them they were a star, going to their high school exhibitions, joining us for Passover diners, moved by the struggles of others. reveling in the joy in singing together. Caroline recalled a trip with her to the Museum of Jewish Heritage – A Living Memorial to the Holocaust. The two were moved by the sentiment of a survivor:

"You who are passing by

I beg you

do something

learn a dance step […]

because it would be too senseless after all

for so many to have died

while you live

doing nothing with your life."

- Charlotte Delbo, Auschwitz survivor (1971)

And we said goodbye.

RIP AUNT GLADYS.


Monday

The teenager grabbed a bus back to Boston. We walked to the bus stop in Chinatown and I said goodbye. 


With fall in full bloom, I got a message about a show from my friend Quincey.  

"Hello hello. There's a little show this Monday. Me and my friend Myla Goldberg are playing a set of our songs at Barbès, 7pm. Our first time! Swing by if you're around...." We biked over to see the sweetest set of old French songs at Barbes, chatting with buddies, the fall wind blowing, New Yorkers dreaming about a subway series, or Dodgers Yankees rematch of the 1977 when the managers, Tommy and Billy reprised their fist fight during the 1955  series when Brooklyn finally won. Falls in the air.


And the week lunged forward. 


Tuesday, Oct 15, 2024


Found myself in Red Hook listening to Cornel West and Simon Critchley, thinking about shamanism and mysticism. “Why mysticism? It has been called “experience in its most intense form,” and in his new book the philosopher Simon Critchley poses a simple question..: Wouldn’t you like to taste this intensity? Wouldn’t you like to be lifted up and out of yourself into a sheer feeling of aliveness? If so, it might be worthwhile trying to learn what is meant by mysticism and how it can shift, elevate, and deepen our sense of our lives and those around us. Mysticism is not primarily a theoretical issue. It's not a question of religious belief but of felt experience and daily practice… freeing yourself of your standard habits, your usual fancies and imaginings so as to see what is there and stand with what is there ecstatically. Critchley’s Mysticism is a book about trying to get outside oneself, to lose oneself, while knowing that the self is not something that can ever be fully lost. It is also a book about Julian of Norwich, Anne Carson, Annie Dillard, T.S. Eliot, and Nick Cave. It is a book of learning and puzzlement, that also shows how listening to music can be secular worship. It opens the door to mysticism not as something unworldly and unimaginable, but as a way of life.”


Watching the two speak at Pioneer Works, I found myself thinking of Simon’s books On Humor and Bowie, as well as Cornell’s books on race and The Ethical Dimensions of Marxist Thought, of meeting, asking questions, of Stanley, our mutual friend and mentor, and more layers of questions. There’s a curiosity about religion, posits Critchley, a passion, an obsession we keep to ourselves, even if it is part of a bicameral mind with interconnecting doors, ever opening and closing. For Critchley, Christianity is a way of thinking about meaning in a meaningless cosmos. Mysticism is a way of acknowledging the shamanistic practices we see, I see in the Berlin all night techno clubs, the trance states we find ourselves in, souls reconnecting with bodies, helping us heal, finding something out there we can be a part of, even when the outside world is falling apart, spinning to pieces. It's a way of pushing back against melancholy, a faith in sacred places and practices. Life is a playlist, songs we play, giving our journeys meaning, connecting poetry and faith, a desire to connect. With his usual flair, West welcomes the cosmos. What does it mean to be human, he wonders. He recalls TS Elliot’s last public talk.  'Lips only sin when they can't kiss,'' said the bard. Elliot reminded us to hold onto the pieces. “These fragments I have stored against my ruins,” he concluded in The Waste Land. Hold them, even as we crumble. 

Religion disappoints, still we turn to it. I do. My dad did when he was sick, fulfilling a promise he made if he survived. Still it lets us down. All human organizations do. We look for help, as well as a little grace. In  the Varieties of Religious Experience, William James reminds us:

Good-humor is a philosophic state of mind; it seems to say to Nature that we take her no more seriously than she takes us… one should always talk of philosophy with a smile.”

We are a wretched species, says  Critchley. Yet, friends help. He recalled stumbling into Cornell drinking Courvoisier in a bar downtown after a conference in which the two had been on opposite sides.  The two spent the rest of the afternoon drinking together, the snow drifting outside. Cornell was on his way to Toni Morrison’s birthday party. At that moment, Critchley knew he adored him. He adored Cornell the reader, the philosopher. Finishing up, a car showed up out of nowhere and picked up Cornell, taking him to Toni Morrison ‘s new york apartment in Tribeca. And Critchley took the 4 line back to Brooklyn.

Shipwreck vs shipwreck, we lunge forward, Critchley argued. It's always been a catastrophe, tragic and helpful and tragic and pessimistic. We could argue it's better not to have been born. But some of us are glad to still be here. 

Critchley read a quote Cornell had referred to by Flannery O'Connor, touching on our longing. 

“Dear God, I cannot love Thee the way I want to. You are the slim crescent of a moon that I see and my self is the earth’s shadow that keeps me from seeing all the moon. The crescent is very beautiful and perhaps that is all one like I am should or could see; but what I am afraid of, dear God, is that my self shadow will grow so large that I block the whole moon, and that I will judge myself by the shadow that is nothing. I do not know you God because I am in the way. Please help me to push myself aside.” confessed Flannery O Conner in 1946.

The talk went on and on. They were late starting and I was late meeting my friends, Greg and Emily and company were at Sony’s nearby. I snuck out to catch them in the quirky bar on the waterfront. 

Thursday

I got a strange email and phone call. from Texas. 

A friend from years and years ago, a part of my class, a signature in a class yearbook, years of rides from football games, smiles, friendship, campaigning, singing, “what have i done to deserve this…” grins, smiles, a hug when Grandma died, through the ups and downs of growing up, graduating, off to college, throughout the lifecourse.

And then a few alumni events and then a phone call.

Breast cancer.

A smile and then she was gone.

No one knew

“The Greenhill Alumni office is sad to share the passing of Karma Gardner Von Burg on October 6, 2024.

From Karma's mother:

"Karma Gardner Von Burg, my amazing daughter fought and completed her heroic battle against breast cancer at 11:11am Sunday, October 6, 2024, in Williamsburg, Brooklyn, New York.

As a Dallas, TX native, Karma spent her formative years in Dallas and graduated from her beloved Greenhill School in Addison, TX. She was a devoted Dallas Cowboys fan and loved everything Texas. Karma's intellect, creativity, and vibrance carried her far in her professional life…

RIP Karma


Later in the day, the Voice of the Gowanus, posted a presser. 

National Grid Files Suit Against 40+ Entities to Roadblock Gowanus Cleanup After Misusing State Program

EPA Official Confirms Improper Use of NYS Brownfield Program in Corrupt Bid to Shift NatGrid Cleanup Costs onto Taxpayers & Ratepayers

GOWANUS, BROOKLYN - National Grid, the largest responsible polluter in the Gowanus Canal federal Superfund, filed a major lawsuit in federal court naming NYC, Con Edison, Kraft Heinz, Verizon, federal agencies and other parties (here), asserting that the company’s gas customers cannot afford the skyrocketing costs of cleaning up the historic pollution in Gowanus.

National Grid looks to blame other parties responsible for the pollution, stating: "By their intransigence, the recalcitrant, remaining responsible parties are threatening to undermine the entire effort to clean up the canal.” But despite attempting to be seen as advancing the cleanup, the practical effect of NatGrid’s lawsuit will actually be to endanger and delay the cleanup.

The lawsuit, along with recent public comments from Brian Carr, lead EPA attorney for the Gowanus Superfund Site, reveals and confirms a litany of sins:

The long list of EPA-identified polluters haven't been paying as required by law but instead are passing the cleanup costs to both ratepayers (their customers) and taxpayers;

EPA knew that the main toxic source material in the Canal was coming from the uplands surrounding the Gowanus Canal but has tried to avoid federal Superfund responsibility for those sites despite a clear nexus;

EPA has not exercised full oversight over the Gowanus uplands and has allowed NYC, NYS and NatGrid to use the NYS Brownfield Program improperly in order to shift clean-up costs to taxpayers and ratepayers across the region;

NatGrid has never had any intention of doing a comprehensive cleanup in Gowanus that is protective of human health and the environment despite being responsible for the vast majority of the pollution.

Voice of Gowanus (VoG) previously sent an extensive and damning letter to EPA on September 23rd, 2024 (here), urgently calling for a federal takeover of the upland sites around the Canal. The letter also outlines the shady financial engineering by NYC and NYS that aims to shield National Grid from liability and maximize taxpayer subsidies flowing to developers while at the same time limiting the cleanup. These upland issues are currently under investigation by the EPA Inspector General, who has already called out EPA Region 2 for its failure to properly exercise federal authority in Gowanus (here).  

Meanwhile, EPA’s Superfund cleanup is already failing the community. Carcinogenic coal tar from National Grid sites continues to present a health risk and a risk to the Superfund remedy. The lagging 100 block-wide investigation by NYS DEC into Soil Vapor Intrusion in Gowanus shows that toxic contamination continues to spread under homes, schools and businesses. As shown in the VoG letter to EPA Region 2, National Grid is trying, in particular, to minimize the remediation of the most toxic site — the Citizens MGP site — which is slated for low income families and a school in a redevelopment project called “Gowanus Green.”

In shocking comments to the Land Use Committee of the Gowanus CAG on October 8th, EPA Assistant Regional Counsel Brian Carr validated VoG’s positions and revealed new information, stating:

“National Grid is doing everything it possibly can to stay in compliance while dragging everything out as long as they can to keep the money in the bank.”

“They have an incredible amount of liability for a lot of these Brownfield sites where there are coal tar cleanups.”

“Citizens [MGP site]…is the single biggest polluting site on the canal.”

“New York City and National Grid have what should be a State Superfund site in a brownfields program… and have we gotten a cleanup?”

“[Citizens] should be a State Superfund site. It was mere political will by the City of New York, who was trying to avoid liability…together with National Grid to do that. That’s just a fact. It may be scandalous for me to say that, and I know you’re taping this, and I don’t care, but it is the truth.”

“[EPA] has always been able to take over” the Citizens site.

###


Saturday

We spent the day canvassing in Allentown. 

"Well we're living here in Allentown

And they're closing all the factories down..." 

It's very purple. “I'm not voting for that monster," said one man, referring to Trump. Another mixed couple split their vote, one for Trump, another Harris. Others quietly said they were voting Harris, but didn't want their friends to hear. Another man in a catholic sweatshirt said he was not going to vote. It's my right, he said. His girlfriend supported Harris. It's Philly and Pittsburgh with Alabama in between, said James Carville. The people who answerred the doors said they were for Harris. But a lot of people didn't answer the door. Obama and Biden saved the US auto industry in Michigan. But the state went to Trump  in 2016. Getting out the vote is everything. We knocked on 48 doors. A third answerred. Did any one pull out a gun on you, asked one organizer. No, but there were some closed doors and insults, a car driving by honking, not in a friendly way. A lot of closed shades, ominous feelings. People seem.scared to speak out. Allentown still felt empty, particularly downtown. Trump has not encouraged the best in us.  We can move beyond this. Let's vote. Driving back to   Brooklyn, it felt great to be back in our multicultural  metropolis.

Turns out everything is.

Sunday

Looking at the polls tightening, my heart sank. 

Don’t read the polls.

Walked through Washington Square Park to a makeshift memorial under the arch; with kids surrounding it. Whose this is for, I asked. "One Direction singer Liam Payne died after falling from a Buenos Aires hotel balcony," a young woman told me. A hint of doom was in the air with the election tightening, the Gaza war, etc. We walked to Viilage Works to talk about poetry, and to Tompkins Square Park, where Dana was sitting by the Hare Krishna Tree, and Ray got us a coffee,  Michael dropped by and we talked about Hal and ai and the machines that woke up, and the Dodgers beat the Mets and Yankers made it to the Workd Series and so on into the night.

And got ready for the Civil disobedience the next day that started this story, stumbling between faith and fury. 

Wednesday

A quiet day grading student papers, looking at ways to live with life’s difficulties, observing classes, making plans for gotv this weekend, thinking about the worst that might be coming, taking in a little stand up philosophy. "Are whales sad or am I just projecting?" wonderred Hannah Gadsby. "Content is spelled the same as content." Where do we find ourselves in the whirlwind? "Call me Ishmael."

"More than six years after Nanette propelled them to international stardom, Hannah Gadsby is learning how to process the new world, with all its catastrophes and hypocrisies, from a new perspective. Hannah now finds themself yet again in a place of cultural dissonance… casting their atypical eye over the fundamental contradictions of life. In this new show that could be seen as the mischievous echo of Nanette, Hannah brings it all – their worries, their wisdom, and their whimsy – to the 330-seat Abrons Arts Center for an intimate and unforgettable evening."

“Do you know why we have the sunflowers? It’s not because Vincent van Gogh suffered,” argued Gadsby. “It’s because Vincent van Gogh had a brother who loved him. Through all the pain, he had a tether, a connection to the world. And that is the focus of the story we need – connection.”

We need that connection, looking at the days ahead. After all, Gadsby reminded us:

“To be rendered powerless does not destroy your humanity. Your resilience is your humanity. The only people who lose their humanity are those who believe they have the right to render another human being powerless. They are the weak. To yield and not break, that is incredible strength.”

Thursday

Word of a New York icon passed on my morning feed:

"America ... loves the successful sociopath and thinks it’s normal to dream of becoming like him."

RIP Gary Indiana

Turnout is everything.