This
week was a wonderful week for celebrating friendships. I reveled in celebrating
the 25th birthday for one of my favorite groups, Times Up! The next day, a
small group of us got together to cheer the birthday of one of the most iconic
activists in town, Monica Hunken. Later that night, Hunken and her community of friends from
Times Up! rode to Coney Island for a midnight swim. After her birthday,
she wrote: " Thank you everyone for the birthday messages
yesterday. I am hugely grateful to have the strong, beautiful community of
friends that I have. You all make my life sparkle." Lately, I've
spend a lot of time thinking about the concept of friendship, including the
short essay to follow. I first started thinking
about writing
about friendship after my friend Eric Rofes died in 2006, only a few weeks after we'd taken a part on a panel
together in California. Friendship
is the nexus between individual and community experience, my college advisor
Peter Nardi wrote in 1999. Since I
became an activist, the friendships I have enjoyed have helped propel movement
making as well as my personal happiness. They are some of the most important
things I have. I will probably write
about this more so your feedback on this essay are most welcome.
Friendship
as a Way of Life is a pulsing and intriguing volume. While some of the early chapters stumble
through cumbersome academic prose and well rehearsed critiques of identity
based social movements, the work eventually finds its stride as a conversation
about friendship, queer activism, and Michel Foucault. The theme takes shape through a number of
late interviews and lectures with the philosopher. The work’s title refers to a 1981 interview of Michel Foucault in
the gay magazine Le Gay Pied. Early in the interview Foucault addresses the
readers of the magazine:
My favorite
line in the interview calls for us to
enjoy a “multiplicity of relationships.” This is a tall order. In many ways, this is what living well is
about.
Tom
Roach considers Foucault’s short but suggestive writings on friendship,
emphasizing their ethical implications and advancing a the concept of friendship
as shared estrangement. He explores the potential of this model for
understanding not only social movements such as ACT UP and the AIDS buddy
system, but the engaged praxis of AIDS activist and writer David Wojnarowicz,
who called for activists to rage rather than mourn for each friend lost to the
epidemic. This is an important
message. My first two demonstrations
with ACT UP, in Sacramento and Washington DC involved watching the ashes of
dead friends strewn on the front of spaces of political power. It is difficult
to describe the visceral quality of these actions. Many AIDS activists recall
the AIDS political funeral as a poignant and powerful means for exposing the
injustices, bringing the steaks of the AIDS crisis into full public view. The point of course was that friendship extends
beyond sex, illness, pleasure, loss, memor, movement practices, and life itself. Entwined within the AIDS crisis, it was a
practice involving all these things. Such
approaches to engagement “transform[ed] friendship and shared estrangement into
a mode of biopolitical resistance that breaches the boundaries of gender, race,
class, and generation and that encourages radically democratic forms of
citizenship and civic participation,” notes Roach (p. 12). “The politicization of friendship… in AIDS care
giving and activism offers a powerful model for biopolitical formations
unwedded to the dialectic of identity and difference – precisely the model to
combat the social movement life in the age of empire,” (P. 12).
Of
course, many writers have made a similar arguments about the capacities of
friendship to transform social relations.
“Democracy has seldom represented itself without the
possibility of at least that which
always resembles – if one is able to nudge the accent of this word – the
possibility of a fraternization,” notes Jaques
Derrida (1997, 2005 viii). “Here, women and men, sisters and brothers,
friends appeal… from fact to law, from law to justice” (p. xi). The point, of course is that friendship is a
vital source of connection, a means of staving off alienated social
relations. In this way, friendship opens
space for resistance to social mores. Here, social movements attempt to fight
institutional organization of our everyday, of our social world, favoring “the
creation of unconventional forms of union and community,” (Roach, p.
14). In this way, friendship opens a space for
alternatives to institutionalized forms of world making, marriage, and social
bonds. Rather than private pleasure,
friendship leaves open a blurry space between different forms of desire,
experience and expression, allowing a communal relation between self and other,
individual and community. Here,
“affective gestures…refuse alignment” along any one significant social or
cultural axes, notes Leela Gandi in Affective
Communities (p. 10). This practice
involves experimenting with new forms of social organizing, ideas, and
conversations, blurring lines between space, sexuality, ways of being, and
remembering. It is a way of building a new world out of an uneasy, in between
space.
This
luminal space is only enhanced by the very real recognition that loss of
friends to the AIDS, overdose, cancer or any other crisis is neither escapable
or avoidable. Certainly all that is
solid melts into the air. Everything is
temporary. AIDS helped us witness the specter
of death and loss in raw visceral way, creating a new way of creating a
connection between self and other, friend and community experience a foxhole
comradery in a shared loss exercise of the everyday, a “shared estrangement”
which helps living feel immediate and often deliscious (Roach, 2012, p. 41).
Researching
my first book two decades ago, I interviewed San Franciscans about their
experience with Gay Liberation and HIV/AIDS.
Of all the losses, people endured, it was the fabric of friendship
disappearing which wore at those I interviewed.
It was opening a book of photos and seeing that most of the images of
friends from pride parades throughout the years from Harvey Milk to the mid-1990’s,
hundreds of those friends are gone. “All gone,” one interviewee recalled. Hundreds of acquaintances, tricks, friends
and organizing comrades were lost to those years. Hank Wilson is an activist who bridged the
years of activism from the Harvey Milk era of the early 1970’s through the ebb
and flow of AIDS activism in the mid-2000’s.
He recalled friends he used to trust when he entered a community
meeting.
I
see some incredibly strong people who aren't here. I have a lot of sadness. I have people that I used to call up at night
and we would bullshit and talk. I don't
have people like that now. That was fun
and I still remember that. I still value
that. They are a strength. I think we were very lucky. I've been very lucky. I've worked with some incredible people. I think at one time we magnetized a lot of
people who came here who had a lot of vision and we fed on each other's
energy. I remember a group of people who
moved this community forward who didn't have personal agendas, who asked the
hard questions when they needed to be asked, who were not career people. They weren't career politicians or career in
the industry. That really helped. It helped.
It used to be that I would go to a community meeting and I would look
around and I would see two or three honest ethical people in there. It didn't matter, you knew if they were
present. I still think of them when I go
to a meeting and I want to be powerful or do what's right even if it's not
popular. They're my role models. We gave each other support and not before
the meeting. We're at the right place at
the right time to make history and we have been since the '70s and we still
are. This is what's been very special
about San Francisco…. Where's the
collective memory? Where does what we
did help the next generation? Right now,
on that particular issue, I feel really sad.
I also want people to know, like on the teacher victory, we knocked
doors down! Nobody opened the doors. We
knocked them down. Institutionally, we really need to teach people our
history. I really want people to know
that history. We've been lucky because
we've done it here and whatever we do here gets credit for gay people. If we can make a model city, we benefit
(Shepard, 1997).
In Wilson’s
narrative, loss extended from friendships to collective memory and activist
practices.
Foucault,
was of course, a part of the social movements of the same period in which
Wilson refers. His writings on power
informed ACT UP, while this support for groups GIP (Groupe d’Information sur
les Prisons) took shape through his advocacy for those in the movement to find their
own voices, needs, desires, and give them expression. The point of much of his thinking and
activism was to lay out questions rather than directives; power could be found
in multiple voices of the body of the group, not from the analysis of one charismatic
leader. This disposition, was of course,
part of how he supported friendship as a way transforming social
relations. Foucault rarely tells what
readers what friendship means or how to make sense of it. Rather than dictate the implications of
friendships for queer activism, he asks readers of an interview with him in
French gay magazine Gai Pied to think
about what it means to them. Here
friendship is delinked from sexuality as well as connected to it. Such friendships could be “the sum of
everything that moves between one and the other, everything that gives them
pleasure” if even “without form” (P. 44-5).
In other words, his descriptions of such friendships were completely
amorphous; his definition vague. For Foucault, friendship was a vital element
of queer politics; while sex and friendship are not opposed, the ties that bond
might be best described in terms of communities of friends. Most certainly friendship finds its way into
movements including civil rights and women’s rights, yet gay liberation – a
movement born of a denial of access to legal forms of social bonds - had a unique claim to this disposition. While marriage is not an option for queers in
most of the world, friendship, however imperfect, always has been. Without defining what this friendship could
mean, he implies this practice entails the formation of new models of ethics (p.
44-5).
Most certainly, these new ways of living take shape in the webs of organizing, activism, cruising, hanging out, friendships extending through queer New York City. For many years in New York, I used to meet a group of friends from harm reduction, AIDS, sexual civil liberties, anarchist, and reproductive rights circles at a bar in the East Village of New York called Dicks. We’d meet at Dicks at six. It was a exquisitely tacky gay bar with a great juke box of 1980’s dance hall hits, some punk and even a few Velvet Underground tunes, a pool table, and bath rooms where all sorts of things used to go on. Between whisky and vodka cranberries, we shared conversations about the intricacies of syringe exchange, the loss of friendships, sexuality, cocaine, Gay Liberation, ascending and descending movements, the limitations of queer politics and recollections of demonstrations. Many of those conversations started for me after the Matthew Shepard political funeral of 1998 when thousands of queer activists overflowed into the streets of New York City, only to be thwarted, arrested and even beaten by the police. One friend had had his hand stepped on by a horse from the NYPD and later won a significant legal settlement from the city. For years we put together the details of the night. In jail, I met trans icons Leslie Feinberg and Sylvia Rivera, AIDS activists Charles King and Keith Cylar and so many more. For years, we shared stories about who went to jail and who stayed in outside. Different participants hashed through the details of the night for months. Throughout these stories, we were creating our own collective memory. My friend Ranolfe Wicker stayed outside. “Oh, it was incredible,” Wicker mused in a typical recollection of the evening.
There was
the march over the avenue and at one point they said Times Square. It was very interesting. The police had picked off the
leadership. And so we were marching
towards Times Square. People were mad
and if they had done that someone would have died. So, instead they listened to what was left of
the leaders and went back down to Fifth Ave.
They even grabbed one of the MCC Ministers that was in a wheel chair,
took her into custody and parishners surrounded the truck and made them release
her. And I was carrying this sign and
wearing my American flag shirt. When I
got down to the park, it was unbelievable.
We took over the avenue. And
there was thirty police trucks. What did
they think we were going to do – burn down the city? They had six hundred cops. What was really frightening, we were blocked
on 45th street and they wouldn’t let us go on 6th Avenue
and that was when the police horses rushed into the crowd. And it was this incredible feeling that you
were in a canyon. And you were fenced in
in the front and the back. And all I
could think of were the Jews going into Auschwitz. We were totally blocked, like captives. No one was going anywhere (Wicker, 2006).
Over and over, we listened to these stories
and others from the era from ACT UP to the Seattle WTO meetings of the
following fall. Through the teller and
listener, of course, new worlds take shape (Plummer, 1995). As we told stories, shared experiences,
commiserated, and hung out, we reveled in the “desire –in-uneasiness” of
friendship (p. 45), not that most of any of us were talking much about
Foucault. But some of us did, ever more
aware of the panopticon forming around us in Giuliani’s New York. Instead of defining anything, it was up to us
to help design, experiment, and create new arenas for resistance, pleasure,
expression, eros, and even an ethics of care which reduced harm and allowed for
the safe expression of desire. It was up
to us to establish and push the limits of the conditions and possibilities of
friendship. Rather than follow
traditional models, it was up to us to establish new moral codes. “
Recent liberation movements
suffer from the fact that they cannot find any other ethics than,” argued
Foucault in On the Genealogy of Morals.
“They need a new ethics, but they cannot find any other ethics than an ethics founded in a so-called scientific
knowledge of what the self is…” (p.48).
The point of social movements is of course to do just this. “People over profits,” AIDS activists have
declared for a quarter century of fighting drug company greed. “Human bonds are worth more than treasury
bonds,” Occupy Wall Street supporter Austin Guest declared on a sign he carried
in April 2012. And the queer activists
from my Friday night meetings at Dicks at Six, they helped create a new ethical
framework linking HIV prevention with reproductive autonomy, suggesting both
had to do with self determination of bodies.
Prohibition was dangerous, we acknowledged. Yet, so were unwanted pregnancies, HIV and drug
overdose. So, we aimed to celebrate sexual
self determination and autonomy, as well as safe, less risky forms of
expression. The implicit links between the
ethics of the women’s health movement, HIV prevention, harm reduction and queer
theory are many. The frameworks for action
took took shape through networks of bodies, affinity groups, projects and
collectives of the era. Throughout these
constellations, relational boundaries blurred, as sexuality was delinked from
friendship.
Foucault’s recognition of a
delinking and subsequent blurring of sexuality is a theme dating back to Homer’s Illiad.
And the
games broke up, and the people scattered to go away, each man
to his fast-running ship, and the rest of them took thought of their dinner
and of sweet sleep and its enjoyment; only Achilleus wept still as he remembered his beloved companion, nor did sleep who subdues all come over him, but he tossed from one side to the other in longing for Patroklos, for his manhood and his great strength
and all the actions he had seen to the end with him, and the hardships he had suffered; the wars of men; hard crossing of the big waters. (Homer /Latimore, 24.1-8)
to his fast-running ship, and the rest of them took thought of their dinner
and of sweet sleep and its enjoyment; only Achilleus wept still as he remembered his beloved companion, nor did sleep who subdues all come over him, but he tossed from one side to the other in longing for Patroklos, for his manhood and his great strength
and all the actions he had seen to the end with him, and the hardships he had suffered; the wars of men; hard crossing of the big waters. (Homer /Latimore, 24.1-8)
It
is hard not to think feelings are blurring between friendship and eros in Achilleus’
longing. Yet, these musings open a new
set up opportunities for new social relations within a theme of friendship runs
through the narrative. Throughout the epic narrative, friendship transforms
relationships and conflict itself. “Guest
friendship” inspired enemies to exchange armor rather than rage against each
other. “Let us avoid each other's spears, even in the close fighting” (Homer/ Latimore,
24. 229). Hector emphasized the same point to Aias. “Come
then, let us give each other glorious presents, so that any of the Achaians or
Trojans may say of us: "These two fought each other in heart-consuming
hate, then joined with each other in close friendship, before they were
parted."' (Homer / Latimore,7.299-302). War is seen
as inevitable, yet the loss of friendships must not be. Yet it often is. Life could be beautiful it rarely is.
In a 2002 interview, Sarah Schulman suggested
that the losses as result of the AIDS epidemic would consume the most
innovative minds of our generation. The
brightest, most creative minds were lost first.
Over time, one gets the sense that these losses are going to be part of
an exercise in modern living. Many find themselves isolated from communities,
sitting looking at computer screens, and isolated from their own labor. Friends
come and disappear. In this way, modern living is an ongoing loss exercise. This
is an exercise in which all that is solid melts into the air. People are forced
to move away from communities of origin and belonging to find work or less
violent communities in which to build their lives. This was the dream of the migrants I knew to
San Francisco. Yet, even there violence
was everywhere. “I’ve seen the best
minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked.” These are some of the most famous lines from
Allan Ginsberg’s Howl. In them, Ginsberg highlights the intersection
of friendship, poetry and interconnections between personal ties and social
networks. Struggling against isolation, people build new friendships and
networks which provide sustenance. These
are spaces for experimentation and innovations in practice of self in relation
to other, where Foucault suggests, friendship is a way of life. Tom Roach has done an inspiring job of
reminding us how there is to consider within the elliptical references Foucault
made to friendship in his lectures and interviews. His reading of the politics and practice of
friendship is apt and important. It is a
practice which helped ACT UP thrive in its best days, as it does for OWS and
other thriving movements today. Here the
intersection of friendship, harm reduction, and support make participation in
social movements a vital. Through the
intersection between individual and community, we hope they can find full
expression for new ideas and innovations.
Yet, we also worry about our friends, the inevitable risks and the
losses which follow. Over the years,
these friendships take on any number of different meanings, particularly as
many are lost. Sometimes they fade; in
others those we care about fade away, sometimes in front of our ideas. Here, supporting friends and protecting
friendship becomes a way of life. Loss exercises are a way of life.
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Additional References
Derrida, J. 1997. The Politics of Friendship. New York: Verso
Foucault, M. 1981. Friendship as a Way of Life. Interview for Le Gai Pied conducted by R. de Ceccaty, J. Danet, and J. Le Bitoux Trans J. Johnson.
Accessed from http://caringlabor.wordpress.com/2010/11/18/michel-foucault-friendship-as-a-way-of-life/
Gandi, L. 2006. Affective Communities: Anticolonial Thought, Fin De Siecle Radicalism, and the Politics of Friendship. Duke: North Carolina.
Homer. 1951. The Illiad of Homer. Trans Richard Latimore. Chicago: University of Chicago Press.
Plummer, Ken. 1995. Telling Sexual Stories. New York: Routledge.
Shepard, B. 2002. The Reproductive Rights Movement, ACT UP, and
the Lesbian Avengers: An Interview with Sarah Schulman. In Eds. Shepard, Benjamin and Hayduk,
Ron. From
ACT UP to the WTO: Urban Protest and Community Building in the Era of
Globalization. New York: Verso
Shepard,B. 1997 White Nights and Ascending Shadows: An Oral History of the San Francisco AIDS Epidemic. Cassell: London.
Wicker, Randy. 2006. Oral history interview with the author.
Great work, Ben. I love the story of Archilleus and Patroklos, but my favorite from the ancient world is that of Nisus and Euryalus. A multiplicity of relationships indeed. One of my favorite lines from Song of Myself: "Do I contradict myself? Well then I contradict myself. I am large. I contain multitudes." I don't think you have tied the end of your thread about separating sexuality and friendship, or the need to, but I love your discussion of friendship as necessary to social change, as necessary to humanity, and your last line is beautiful, beauty being truth, and truth beauty: "Supporting friends and protecting friendships becomes a way of life." I might go a step farther and argue it's the only way to live, the thing that redeems us, that makes us human.
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