lucky to be here |
Yesterday at Judson, our 14-year-old read a poem at Kids day at Judson memorial church, where she has gone with me for a decade.
“Lucky” by Kirsten Dierking
All this time,
the life you were
supposed to live
has been rising all around you
like the walls of a house
designed with warm
harmonious lines.
As if you had actually
planned it that way.
As if you had
stacked up bricks
at random,
and built by mistake
a lucky star.
Andy, of Judson Sunday School, wanted her to read these words on the occasion of her graduation from Judson Sunday school. We read Eccliastes, the kids sang city of immigrants wearing Trump wigs reminding the world this is a city of immigrants. We all sang Turn, Turn, Turn and When I'm 64. And the service reminded us of passing time. Andy sermonized about the god in every story in this Naked City. And greeted our friends at Judson. And number two said goodbye to eighth grade. As i write she's finishing her last day of school, after a decade.
Caroline and I first started talking about writing a book about Brooklyn when we returned from California a decade ago, finding the borough in the process of a new set of transformations. Its been a wild decade. We'll miss Brooklyn while we are gone. But are excited to share her wonderful pictures and the stories we've traced about the borough with Mark Noonan and so many other friends as the waterfront has changed and shifted through time. Now our book Brooklyn Tides is scheduled for an October release.
Finishing the service we played in the grass in the park, went skateboarding and reveled in the passing of time. We've been here longer than anywhere else i've lived in my life, more than the South, more than Texas, more than anywhere. With all its problems, its home.
We'll be away much of the summer. But so far the summer has been grand, with dinner parties and lots of lots of glorious days out in the streets, the parks, and public spaces of NYC.
We're truly lucky to be here.
Postscript
After I finished the blog, Andy sent me a copy of his Kids Day sermon. Here it is in its entirety.
Andy, of Judson Sunday School, wanted her to read these words on the occasion of her graduation from Judson Sunday school. We read Eccliastes, the kids sang city of immigrants wearing Trump wigs reminding the world this is a city of immigrants. We all sang Turn, Turn, Turn and When I'm 64. And the service reminded us of passing time. Andy sermonized about the god in every story in this Naked City. And greeted our friends at Judson. And number two said goodbye to eighth grade. As i write she's finishing her last day of school, after a decade.
Caroline and I first started talking about writing a book about Brooklyn when we returned from California a decade ago, finding the borough in the process of a new set of transformations. Its been a wild decade. We'll miss Brooklyn while we are gone. But are excited to share her wonderful pictures and the stories we've traced about the borough with Mark Noonan and so many other friends as the waterfront has changed and shifted through time. Now our book Brooklyn Tides is scheduled for an October release.
Finishing the service we played in the grass in the park, went skateboarding and reveled in the passing of time. We've been here longer than anywhere else i've lived in my life, more than the South, more than Texas, more than anywhere. With all its problems, its home.
We'll be away much of the summer. But so far the summer has been grand, with dinner parties and lots of lots of glorious days out in the streets, the parks, and public spaces of NYC.
We're truly lucky to be here.
The night before leaving. |
After I finished the blog, Andy sent me a copy of his Kids Day sermon. Here it is in its entirety.
From 0 to 60: A Reflection on the Measure of Time
by
Andrew Frantz
For Judson Memorial Church
June 11, 2017
In this short Life
That only lasts an hour
How much – how little – is
Within our power
Emily Dickinson
Last year I received an email
from an old college buddy of mine, Mark Biddle, proposing a reunion take place
in the summer of 2017. The email was
also addressed to four friends of ours – Jim Nogalski, Rich Lloyd, Ben Leslie
and Douglas Sullivan-Gonzalez. Other
than Doug, I haven’t seen these guys since we were all students together at
Samford University in Birmingham, Alabama, way back in 1979. However, more shocking than hearing from Mark
after all these years is the reason for our reunion: we’re all turning 60 this year.
That’s right, in my case, on
July 19th, a mere 38 days from today, I will say goodbye to the last of my
F-word birthdays. Now I know I don’t
look 60. I don’t mean to brag, but it’s
a medical fact. Recently, I had a doctor
assure me that I looked “nowhere near 60.”
Okay, so he wasn’t exactly a doctor; he was my acupuncturist’s college
intern, who, while filling out the required paperwork for my session asked for
my age, and when I said, “I’ll be 60 this summer,” he went off on me like
someone trying to talk a jumper down from the Brooklyn Bridge: “No way!
You don’t look 60! I swear you
don’t look anything like 60! Honestly,
I’m not just trying to be polite. You
look nowhere near 60!” Alright, alright,
I won’t jump.
But to paraphrase Gloria
Steinem, this is what 60 looks like.
It’s probably a lot hairier than any of us imagined it could be.
As for that reunion I
mentioned, it’s going to take place one month from today, July 11th. Mark and his wife have graciously invited us
to spend a few days at their place outside of Richmond, Virginia. The six of us are positively giddy at the
prospect of seeing one another again. Over
the past few months, the emails have been flying back and forth as we plan all the
necessary details: Who needs
transportation? Who has become a
vegetarian? Who drinks what? We’ve never sounded more like the geezers we’ve
apparently become – “Have you got a Keurig machine?”
When I reflect back on my college
days with those guys, I can’t help but think of a particular poem by Emily Dickinson,
and here is where I do mean to brag. This
past winter, I set a goal for myself to read all of the almost 1,800 poems of
Emily Dickinson. It took me into the
spring, but I did it. Miss Dickinson’s
poems are, of course, wonderful and I highly recommend you read them all, with
the caveat that you not wait until you are about to turn 60 to do so. There is an awful lot of death in those
poems. Some hope, too, here and there –
“‘Hope’ is the thing with feathers”; “Hope is a strange invention”; “Hope is a
subtle Glutton” – Emily’s idea of hope might have changed through the years.
The poem that comes to mind is
this:
We met as Sparks – Diverging
Flints
Sent various – scattered ways
–
We parted as the Central
Flint
Were cloven with an Adze –
Subsisting on the Light We
bore
Before We felt the Dark –
A Flint unto this Day –
perhaps –
But for that single Spark.[1]
We met as sparks. Actually, we met as ministerial students, the
six of us, preacher boys, if you will, each of us believing we had been called
by God for some purpose. We’d come to
Samford University, of all places, this little Southern Baptist school, to try
and better understand both our calling and the caller.
Sometimes when I picture
myself going off to college, a young ministerial student, I’m reminded of the
movie A Christmas Story, the 1983
holiday classic about nine-year-old Ralphie Parker who desperately wants a Red
Ryder 200-shot Range Model air rifle for Christmas, only to be told by his
mother, his teacher and a department store Santa, “You’ll shoot your eye
out.” Do you remember the scene in which
Ralphie’s little brother Randy is getting ready for school, his mother stuffing
him inside a gigantic snowsuit, complete with clip-on mittens, boots, a woolen
hat underneath his hood, and on top of everything, she wraps his entire head
inside a scarf that must be 20 feet long?
Randy cries, “I can’t put my arms down!” before waddling off to school.
That was me – Randy Parker –
wrapped up tight from head to toe in the faith instilled in me by my family and
my hometown church. A faith which,
however sincere, never asked me to think so much as it preferred I
believe. A faith in which I was never
challenged to question so much as I was persuaded to regurgitate, with the
implied penalty of hellfire and damnation for all those souls who strayed from
the path.
Enter the five reprobates
with whom I’ll be reuniting next month – Mark, Jim, Rich, Ben and Doug – and
there were others, of course.
We lived in the same dorm, we
took many of the same classes: homiletics
– how to preach; hermeneutics, how to exegete (still one of my favorite words)
or interpret the scriptures – which remains the $64,000 question, doesn’t it?
We learned Biblical
Languages, Hebrew and Greek. There is
nothing like the declension of nouns and adjectives in your “Baby Greek” class,
as we called it, to cause you to wonder if perhaps the concept of biblical
inerrancy would fare better if God had just spoken English.
We studied archaeology together
– what do you mean there is no historical evidence of Moses or the Exodus?
We read Bonhoeffer and
Niebuhr, we talked Kierkegaard and argued Tillich over midnight pancakes at
IHOP. We questioned and challenged one
another.
One day, one of the guys
handed me a book by the then-considered renegade, Episcopalian Bishop John
Shelby Spong, entitled This Hebrew Lord,
with its opening poem, “Christpower”:
Look at him!
Look not at his divinity,
but look, rather, at his freedom.
Look not at the exaggerated tales of his power,
but look, rather, at his infinite
capacity
to give himself away.[2]
You read a book like Spong’s
and you can feel the floor beneath your feet begin to shift as, for the first
time, there is the hint of a God who might be outside all of the entrance exams
and rules and regulations with which you’ve grown up. And one day, you happen to catch sight of
yourself in the mirror looking a lot like Randy Parker from A Christmas Story; you realize you can’t
move your arms, and you find yourself asking, “Why am I wearing this damn
scarf?”
If all of this sounds a tad earnest,
then I suppose I could tell you about the time Jim Nogalski decided to
celebrate his own birthday by making a chocolate cake filled with Ex-lax
laxative, and serving slices to everyone who would take one. Have you ever known a college student to refuse
a free slice of cake? My friend Rich
Lloyd had two pieces. It just wiped him
out.
Or I could tell you about a
day during our senior year when the guys were teasing me about something, and
much like the recent episode featuring the Mets mascot, Mr. Met, I responded by
giving them the finger. One of them took
a picture but I paid it no mind. Later
that semester, I was invited to preach before the university in convocation, a
nice honor. Come the day, I’m sitting up
on the podium, nervously waiting to speak, when I happened to notice the guys sitting
on the front pew of the chapel, all of them grinning like a bunch of fools. Slowly, they began to unbutton their shirts,
revealing t-shirts emblazoned with that picture of me giving them the finger.
There were road trips and
dormitory hall wars and . . . well, “time it was and what a time it was.”[3] Never in our wildest dreams could we have
imagined a day when we would all be turning 60 together, and yet, here we are
in the future, wondering where all the years have gone.
Today, I find myself asking,
how do we measure time? By the circled
date on a calendar, the concentric rings within our tree of life? Do we measure time by the accumulation of
aches and pains and scars or the wrinkles not visible in our photographs and memories? Do we measure time by the growth of our
children, by our changing landscape, or by society’s progress or lack thereof?
Alan Lightman’s 1993 novel, Einstein’s Dreams, from which this
morning’s New Testimony was taken, is set in Bern, Switzerland, in the spring
of 1905, as the then 26-year-old patent clerk, Albert Einstein, was preparing
to publish his theory of relativity. The
novel is a series of dreams in which Einstein measures time in various
ways. In one dream, time flows
backwards. In another, time is visible –
one can actually step into the future. In
yet another dream, time is more quality than quantity, measured not by clock or
calendar, but by the color of the sky or the feeling of happiness when a person
enters a room. It’s a rather strange
novel, but I liked it.
If there is one dream we all
may have in common it would be the dream, read earlier this morning, in which
time stands still.
Parents, let me ask you, what
would you give to be able to stop time at the moment of your child’s first step
or their first word or a time when your children were small enough to be able
to crawl up onto your lap and, that most magical of words, cuddle?
Or since we’re fantasizing,
let’s leave the kids at home!
Who among us hasn’t dreamed
of returning to that place where you were young and – how did Hoagy Carmichael
put it?
When our love was new
And each kiss an inspiration
But that was long ago
Now my consolation is in the
stardust of a song[4]
Maybe we can stop time.
In an essay entitled “The
Temporary Universe,” Alan Lightman wonders
why we long so for permanence, why the fleeting nature
of things so disturbs. . . . We visit and revisit the old neighborhood where we
grew up[.] We clutch our old photographs. In our churches and synagogues and mosques,
we pray to the everlasting and eternal.
Yet, in every nook and cranny, nature screams at the top of her lungs
that nothing lasts, that it is all passing away.[5]
Lightman says,
Suppose I ask a different kind of question: If against our wishes and hopes, we are stuck
with mortality, does mortality grant a beauty and grandeur all its own? Even though we struggle and howl against the
brief flash of our lives, might we find something majestic in that brevity?[6]
For the writer of the Book of
Ecclesiastes, time is measured in seasons and the responsibilities which make
up our days: “To every thing there is a
season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”[7]
All my life, whenever I’ve
read this passage of scripture, or listened to someone expound upon it, the
emphasis has always been on the word “time.”
And as beautiful as the passage may be, it has always struck me as having
something of a “Duh, thank you Captain Obvious” quality about it. Of course, there is a time in your life when
you are born or a time when you laugh or cry; how exactly does that qualify as
“Wisdom literature”?
But recently, I came across something
that just rocked my world, theologically speaking. In his book The Great Poems of the Bible, James Kugel, who for 21 years, was
the Starr Professor of Hebrew Literature at Harvard, informs us that “[t]he
word for ‘every’ or ‘all’ in Hebrew can, as a noun, mean either ‘everything’ or
‘everyone.’ Elsewhere in the Bible, the noun
usually means ‘everything,’ but in the Hebrew of Ecclesiastes, ‘everyone’ is
often what he means[.]”[8] Thus, the more accurate reading would be,
“For everyone, a season, and a time
of [doing] each thing under the
heavens[.]”[9]
Brothers and sisters, if you
will permit an old preacher boy a moment of exegesis, to my mind, Kugel’s
translation changes everything, no pun intended, broadening the meaning of the
passage, adding a touch of empathy.
For however different our
lives might appear to be, and I mean to take nothing away from anyone’s
individuality, what the writer of Ecclesiastes is telling me when he says, “For
everyone there is a season,” is that
our lives are a series of shared experiences:
birth and death, love and loss, laughter and tears. We are not alone. I may understand you and you may understand
me because each of us has stood where the other is standing. Given our present political climate, it would
seem to me a touch of empathy is needed now more than ever.
Perhaps time is measured by
the seasons of our lives, and perhaps those seasons are measured by how we
measure one another.
This July 19th, my mother, who turned 83 in March,
will call to wish me a happy birthday, God willing, as she does every year. Her phone calls always go something like
this. First, she’ll wish me a “Happy
Birthday!” and say, “I remember the day you were born, it seems like it was
just yesterday.” Next, she’ll compliment
me on what an easy birth I was. I’ve
never known how to respond to that: You’re
welcome? I try not to be a burden on
anyone? Then we’ll chit chat about how
old we’ve both become, before my mother will inevitably ask, “Well, do you have
any words of wisdom to offer now that you are” however many years old I am?
For most of my life these birthday phone calls
have come so early in the morning, I can’t even recall my name, let alone offer
any Ecclesiastes-like words of wisdom.
But this year I’ll be turning 60, so I should be wide awake because
that’s what we old people do – we wake up early. So what words of wisdom shall I offer her, or
my fellow reprobates when we gather together next month, or what shall I leave
you with this morning?
To be honest, I thought that Ecclesiastes-thing
was pretty good, it would be kind of hard to top that. How about this: Everything I have come to believe about God I
have learned from living in New York City.
The idea which first took root in me some forty years ago while hunched
over a dorm room desk in Birmingham, Alabama, that God could be greater than
all our limitations, has never been more real than it is right here and right
now.
And while there might be eight million stories
in the naked city –
City of black, city of white, city of every
shade in between.
City of gay and straight.
City of Hindu and Muslim, Christian and Jew.
And, yes, city of immigrants, the documented
and the undocumented –
I believe God is in every last one of our
stories. For in our great city’s
diversity lies the breadth and depth and mind and even pleasure of God.
These are difficult times in
which we find ourselves, of that there is no doubt, and yet, in the words of a
very hopeful Emily Dickinson, “In this short life that only lasts an hour, how much is within our power.”[10]
Amen?
Amen.
*****
Ancient Testimony: Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
New Testimony: from
Einstein’s Dreams by Alan Lightman
There is a place where time
stands still. Raindrops hang motionless
in air. Pendulums of clocks float
mid-swing. The aromas of dates, mangoes,
coriander are suspended in space.
Who would make pilgrimage to
the center of time? Parents with
children, and lovers.
And so, at the place where
time stands still, one sees parents clutching their children, in a frozen
embrace that will never let go. The
beautiful young daughter will never stop smiling the smile she smiles now, will
never lose this soft glow on her cheeks, will never grow wrinkled or tired,
will never get injured, will never unlearn what her parents have taught her,
will never know evil, will never tell her parents that she does not love them.
And at the place where time
stands still, one sees lovers kissing in the shadows of buildings, in a frozen
embrace that will never let go. The
loved one will never take his arms from where they are now, will never give
back the bracelet of memories, will never journey far from his lover, will
never fail to show his love, will never become jealous, will never fall in love
with someone else, will never lose the passion of this instant in time.
Some say it is best not to
go near the center of time. Life is a
vessel of sadness, but it is noble to live life, and without time there is no
life. Others disagree. They would rather have an eternity of
contentment, even if that eternity were fixed and frozen, like a butterfly mounted
in a case.
[1] Emily Dickinson, Edited by Thomas H. Johnson, The Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson
(Boston: Little, Brown & Company,
1976), 448.
[2]
John Shelby Spong, This Hebrew Lord
(New York: The Seabury Press, 1974).
[3]
Paul Simon. “Bookends.” Bookends. Columbia Records, 1968.
[4]
Music by Hoagy Carmichael, lyrics by Mitchell Parish. “Stardust.”
Mills Music (Publisher), 1929.
[5] Alan Lightman, The
Accidental Universe: The World You
Thought You Knew (New York: Vintage
Books, 2013), 24.
[6]
Ibid., 35-36.
[7]
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (KJV).
[9]
Ibid.
[10] Emily Dickinson, The Complete
Poems of Emily Dickinson, 448.
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