Hanging in the dessert with mon amore. Carlos and this writer. |
We had not been in Long Beach for eleven years. But the first few months of number two’s life
took place there. For a while there, she
had put in more time in California than New York, where she was born, just
months before we left for Los Angeles for my first teaching job in 2006. I’ve long have a soft spot for Los Angeles that
has only warmed over the years. On more
than one pivotal occasion, the space opened up when other doors closed,
offering me a place at Pitzer College in the Claremont Colleges in 1988 and my
first tenure track teaching assignment at Cal State Long Beach in 2006. That
year, we hit the road every weekend, sometimes to Big Sur or Malibu. Our favorite weekend get-away was 29 Palms
Inn, located in an Oasis just outside of
Joshua Tree National Park. We visited
there three times that year, growing to love the dessert more and more each
trip, seeing the beauty in the dessert flowers, the cactai, the resilient
vegetation, and the critters that one gets to know on each trip On each trip we
learned more, the kids growing more and more each trip. On one trip, the number one got a splinter an
inch long, only letting me take it out when I bribed her with ice cream. On another, she chopped her hair short when I
was asleep after the trip. During the
days, we hiked and scamble through the otherworldly landscape. At night, we howled with the coyotes,
enjoying a dinner at the pool in the old California inn. And this journey was no different. It just took us longer to get there.
After staying up all night the night before the trip, we
flew to the loopy little Long Beach Airport and jumped in a rental car. It would be a two and a half hour trip to 29
Palms. The day light was bright and
everyone was excited. First stop on any
road trip through Southern California has to start with In and Out Burger. “Its so good I want to cry,” Rick Whitaker
wrote, describing his first taste.
Standing in line at an In and Out, just outside of Anaheim, kids have
just finished baseball practice. And
Carlos, who looks no older than twenty, walks up to greet us and ask if we’ve
been here before. Yes, we tell him. He smiles and strolls away, walking back in a
minute telling me about a burger they offer using the lettuce for a bun. He likes it when he doesn’t want all the
bread. He is reading my mind. One of the things I love about Southern
California is now nice everyone is. Everyone
has dialed it down just a little more than NYC, much more laid back.
There problems with
Southern California are certainly many.
Car culture being the worst of these problems. And that’s a big
problem. But it’s a relief to be back in
Jerry Brown’s California where they curb emissions on cars, acknowledge climate
change, and tax billionaires. Today, California has a budget surplus because of
this simple policy. If only NYC embraced
a similar ethos?
Further and further East we drive on highway 62 out to 29
Palms. We see gun shops and liquor stores, country stores, small inns, shut
doors, thrift shops, loopsy southern California
bowling alleys with 1950’s signs in disrepair, and cactai. A few Joshua Trees begin to appear in the
dessert as the space starts to feels dried and more arid.
After three hours, we make it to 29 Palms. It feels like homecoming. We pull on our bathing suits and hit the
pool, swimming and swimming into the evening.
The coyotes howl at the full moon in the distance. I read stories about a daylong hike that
becomes a weeklong fight against death, with references to Charles Bukowski and
Clifton’s Cafeteria in Downtown LA, feeling glad to put the time I put in here,
exploring loopy southern California in between other voyages over the last
three decades, coming back and feeling like its kindov a home. I dream vividly, the dessert outside
in the distance, lit by the moon. Dreams
expand and expand, as I move further inside my consciousness feeling a part of everything.
The next two days, we spend lounging at the pool and
exploring the national park, taking a four hour hike and picnic on Sunday, a
shorter rock scramble on Monday. The
landscape feels like a per or even post apocalyptic space, stimulating pop
culture memories of star trek episodes, movies and a landscape that feels both
desolate and full of life, like what the moon must feel like and
ourselves. I imagine running into
Carlos Casteneda, meeting Don Juan when he was an anthropology graduate
students.
Our first hike was through Lucky Jim, a train the ranger
recommended. Walking out into the
dessert one is immediately aware that this is a formidable landscape. Respect nature, my summer camp counselors
always advised. Bring water, a map, and
a compass. Keep your hands out of dark
crevices, warns the map the ranger gave us.
We have phones which probably won’t work, and a snack from the bar. Alternately taken by the land and fearful,
the heat of the day grips us. It gets hotter and hotter as we walk, following
the markings on the loop. The heat
drains us. We drink and walk and
imagine. It feels like the land that
time forgot, the earth as a work of art.
Danger and beauty are palpable here. It’s the most majestic of sights I have ever
seen.
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